Facing the Overwhelming

Things are getting real crazy at La Casa de Manjarrez

Each day I add things to an already full calendar. I often find that I have double booked time slots. There is so much that I want to do, so much that I need to do.

I am the main house keeper, I do the laundry, which also includes putting it way. I am so thankful that my hubby helps with cooking sometimes and does homework with our son.

I often find myself cleaning poop and pee up over and over. I listen to kids arguing, I listen to cartoons far to much. The ECI teacher insists that I need to have my daughter doing a sit down task at least once a day. But I don't see her trying to work on Non-Majors Biology while cleaning poop and pee and scheduling appointments and making sure that there is milk and eggs in the house and also running the other child to therapy appointments.

So badly do I want to build my Doterra business. I want to share more than I do. But I don't have the time or the oils to really make it do what I want it to do. I often feel stuck or overwhelmed. Meetings to learn how to make this work aren't an option when you don't have childcare because child care is an added expense. Plus hubby really doesn't want to watch kids for two hours after having been at work all day. He recently started English Composition I, which is a very hard class.

Today the dog needs a bath.
   I went to an appointment for myself. It was a pre-op and took nearly two hours. Coming out of the appointment made me feel lost and scared and alone. I won't have nearly the amount of help that I feel like I will need. I denied heavy pain medication because exactly seven days after surgery my hubby will be in the field for two weeks.

This leaves me alone.
 Alone with two kids, one at school, one at home.
   Therapy appointments and any other appointments that may need to be added and don't forget my Biology and any assistance my hubby may need with is class.

Where am I in all this?

6-8 weeks before I will be back to my normal busy self.

But the housecleaning, laundry, errands, cooking, biology, Doterra, helping hubby, beginning packing and whatever else needs doing will still need doing.

And there is me!

I am not super woman! Not even close, I pray that God will give me the strength that I will need to overcome this hurdle. To be strong when I am at my weakest. To not give in but to admit when I have reached my limit and can handle no more for that day.

My circumstances are not unique, not by a long shot. I am merely one woman plodding along this walk called life and every day trials.

I just happen to be 26 hours from my family and friends that would normally help me.



Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength