Spiral Down

The nights I spend dreaming
 What of, you will never know
  Nor are you allowed to ask.

No questions are allowed
 Because I don't have an answer

The door will be open just a bit
 there is a light
  such a tiny light

Footsteps echo
 down a winding staircase

Not a word is spoken
 my mind is whirling
  faces flashing past
  round and round they go

The warmth of a lover's embrace
 or a kiss of loneliness
  twisted around desire

Of words spoken
 that fell on deaf ears

To a blind mind
 hearing a would not have helped
  drowning in their voices

 Grasping at straws
 holding onto thorns

A hand reaches down
 pulling up into the light
  of baby blue eyes
   and a heavenly smile

This paper will free me
 but only for a moment

An unfinished chapter
 that won't grant me rest

Waiting for the sound
 that will surely free me

Speak
 straight to my heart
  while looking into my eyes

Remove the chains of infatuation
 replaced by chains of roses
  and temptations kiss
  that won't be kept at bay

The icy fingers of regret
 pull at long flowing hair

This is right
 to the lonely mind
  and a tortured heart that has been left alone
   far too long

The darkness comes to play
 wreaking havoc
  torturing
   blinding
    deafening

All lies of desire
 all lies of false beliefs

And now I am surrounded by
 your honest words
  loving embrace
   eyes that can see into a soul

Call it love
 call it forever

 But remember
  forever is a long time
   forever is just a dream away

April 1998
Revised March 2002

Olivia J. Stuart